part of my mind?
constant.
thats my fucking bloody constant.
fuck tv.
what about life
back on track
not likely'
maybe tomroow i'l cal jarek s dad and ask if he's seen him.
asshole
guess i'm stil in denial
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things have changed ha ve nt th e?
you ass ha5ts!?
like i have a good job, decent life>! hate the shiT.
(flex, don read it, not to U)!
and and and and and , i listen to the record. my ass sweats. my wife on the plane. me, drunk, alone, tonight, my fucking coup de taea, on whta? can i speellll ? can i htink? no. lll
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well, . mahnmy fucking thoughts.
workst day at work ever in my life.
;PROJECT MANAGEMNET?
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oughc. htye want me that. my "design" firm values project management most. they, I realize, architecture - complete more important than good - they, they negate my positives and show off my unheardofesss..
sure this is to be a legal document. in that case: back pay please for all project management work i've done (all work since i started) should be paid X2 my actual "design" salary.
and i'll leave it at that (xcept all desing work should be paid at 4X what you gave me you ass hats!).
hi all other 1100xs to see this. (i'm sure no one). solidarity!
naked and alive is better than clothed in rags of shit.
ps 1100 work = not good right now.
whoops. can i forgive myself naked?
well, it was my blog anyway.
guess its just a for everyone diary.
that sucks too. wow it's bad.
how do i explain what has happened? that makes it more than a chapter?
maybe the book ought to be about jarek. power in that word., name.
punctuation doesn't do justice to though.
when your best friend dies.
so fuking: WHY? JAREK, WHY THE FUCK DID YOU DIE? WHY WHY WHY?
i know, i'll get it. i got it. i'll tell..... anyway,
you asked me to.
wish i still had you.
