bought some records. im not drunk. more blog. no one responds. i guess there are billions of us. maybe you can't just sit back and wait for everyone else. i guess i should be more assertive. not aggressive, but assertive. there are a thousand new people that pass me by every day. and me them. and no one talks to anyone new. i guess thats why we fall in love so fast here. i haven't even talked to a woman that i don't know here, and i fall in love 20 times a day. with like everything that walks by. that sits across from me in the L train. is that an inquisitive look i'm giving you, or a creepy look? you'd have to see me to know i guess. but if one of those beautiful women took two seconds and just said "hello", i'd be happy to get off the train right there and have a conversation. batt an eye. touch the arm. some people are like moths though, spinning around a lamp that doesn't exist anymore, but will still burn them out. don't want that. don't think i have to worry about it either. i haven't been dedicated in a long time. but i do want to be. that's why i'm stickin it out until the sun falls on my head this time. this time. we'll see how it works out. either i'll break down and wake up drunk next to her again or love will finally find me and stick it out. well, we'll see what happens anyway.
i guess i just want to be in love again...
